Bork - Deconstructed

Deconstructed Self Portrait - Transition

I constructed my self portrait to be able to change depending on how someone saw it, meaning that the four pieces of the canvas can be moved to show different levels of connection between alternating pieces. the colorful mess of sharpie and acrylic is meant to signify all the medication that I willingly put into my body in hopes that I will somehow be cured of my illness. While the grey figure in the bottom piece is supposed to be what is left of the old me, and it looks as if its all too colorful counterpart will consume it. Some back story; I have had kidney stones sine I was fourteen and stared taking medication and editing my lifestyle in order to alter my poor health. Yet I feel as if nothing has helped me thus far, instead my body and mental health seem to be suffering more. Changing and manipulating itself into something I seem to recognize more as myself than the grey healthy blob that I used to be.
The piece itself is made up of three canvas panels and one stretched canvas. With no real frame and the separate pieces can be moved as the viewer may see fit, if they are willing to rearrange the thumbtacks that is. I used acrylic for the colorful beast and oil on the grey figure and the eyes. The crazy detail work is done in sharpie, while there are underlying texture/bumps of glue and puffy paint, As far as deconstructed I feel that this piece shows how I now see myself appearing. No longer as a figure recognizable shapes and body parts, but as a dysfunctional thing being fueled by artificial means.